Am I Worth It?

This past week in Interns, we had our regular "sexuality class" which we discuss pretty much anything from relationships to dating, to marriage, to respecting guys and girls. It's one of my favourite classes. This past week we were talking about what men can do to respect and cherish women, and what women can do to respect and cherish men. It was ensightful, and full of information. I found myself longing to have my question answered. "Am I worth it? Am I lovely?" I wanted not only to hear it from God, but to hear it from men. And not just any man, and I'm not looking to be validated, or because my self esteem is super low, and I need to be brought up. But because there is something so simple with a brother, boyfriend, husband, father, friend looking you in the eyes and saying you are worth it! You're worth every piece of happiness, your worth me fighting for you, your worth me carrying an extra 20 pounds of bags, or waiting an extra 30 seconds to have the door held open for you. This week I had a male friend of mine helping me move, and when they were leaving and I was thanking him for the thousandth time, he looked to me and said "You're worth it, Skye." Those 4 words sent me to the moon. Not because I am in love with the guy, or like him in that way, but because to hear him say that says you mean something to me. And you are worth the effort of lifting that heavy mattress, or carrying that extra bag. After they left, I went to my room, and sat on my bed in awe. How am I so lucky to have people in my life, brothers, and friends, fathers, and pastors in my life that think I'm worth it. To know that no matter what happens in my life, they will be there for me. They will be strong enough. They will be what I need to get me through that difficult time. That the strength that God has put into them will carry me through. Will be all the strength I need, nothing more and nothing less. God knew what we needed, he knew that as women we were strong enough to get through life. But he knew that we would need someone to look out for us, when life gets hectic. We needed someone who, everyday would say to us you are worth it all. You are worth the fight. He knew that the strength of a man is uncomparable. That they have what it takes. I want to say this to men everywhere. Thank you. To the man at the grocery store who waited to hold both doors open for me. To the Intern men who hold my bags everyday for me. To the Senior Pastor who takes the time out of his busy schedule to make sure that I'm ok. To the brothers that make sure that I am looked out for, and that no boy treats me unfairly. Thank you. To the women out there: make sure to say thank you to the men in your life. Whether it is your husband, significant other, brother, friend, or father take the time, look them in the eyes and tell them that they are strong enough. Thank them for making the effort to protect you. To look out for you, for having what it takes to win us over.

Love Letter

There is a hunger rising inside of me. I just want to be with You all the time. I want me heart to be shaped by Your will, and Your hands. I want You to be my everything. I want to worship You in everything thing that I do. With every breath, praise Your name. May every word spoken bring glory to Your name. Transform my life. Take charge. Like the clean feeling after a shower. Cleanse my life. I don't want the things in my past to affect my destiny, I want them to stay in the past. Today feels different. It feels like broken ground. It feels like I've waited for this my entire life. Expectations. Excitement. Love. Trust. BE MY EVERYTHING. I want nothing about my life to be normal. I want to live out my dreams. The dreams that You gave me The promises that You gave me. Your word does not return void. A promise, means a promise. Regardless of my circumstances, my decisions, my mistakes, my failures. YOU ARE GOOD! A Good Father. A renowned healer. A blessed redeemer. A loyal friend. Merciful saviour.