Life...

I am surrounded by wonderful family, amazingly friends, and great opportunity. I have had a good life. A good upbringing, and great parents. Yet I feel like something is missing. Like I'm not capturing all the opportunities that I'm suppose to be. I feel like I'm just existing... Not really living. Sometimes I lay in bed just before I go to sleep, and I have a rush of all these great ideas, and great things I want to do with my life, and then I wake up, and they are all gone, and the modivation do them is gone as well.

I spent a wonderful day today with 2 of my best friends, who really challenge me everytime I see them. Who really make me think about things in my life, and the way I am living it. I appreciate that about them. I appreciate that I know whenever I see them I can ask them anything and get their honest opinion, and have great conversation about real things in life. Not about the weather, or the canucks, or about how cute their babies are... But about LIFE. Real, sometimes hard, often frusterating, but always rewarding life. The ability to learn from people in your life is so incredible, yet most of us miss it, or take it for granted. We seek the opinion, or counsel or someone on TV, some big TV star, or some magazine that claims to know the answers to all of life's questions. Why search so high and low, and get answers from someone who doesn't know you, or know how to support you? Why do we, as a generation need so badly to be comforted with image? To make sure that we look good, have the latest style, or name brands, and the right music in our car? Why can we not just accept, and embrass who were created to be?

I don't claim to know all the answers, and I struggle with many of these things myself. And to be honest, I'm sick of it. I hate living in a world that says you need to be a certain weight, or look a certain way, or even talk a certain way. And yet, knowing what I know about God's grace, and goodness, I still struggle with the worldly views. UGH!!