Alive In This Moment

This evening, I discovered my old cd's. The cd's that my friends and I used to cruise around listening to in my car. Many many songs that bring back memories. Everything from Hillsongs, to Raze. Memories flooded my mind, tears filled my eyes. Many songs which I have shared with friends. Dear friends. Friends that sat in my car, and cried with me. Friends that rolled down the windows, turn up the volume, and sang along. And friends that sat in silence with me, as we let the Lord touch our hearts with these songs. There are several songs that play now, and my mind rushes back to the time and place that I have shared them with. Summers where, for all of it, we played the same cd over, and over again. And everytime we did, it touched us in a new way. And songs, that simply just bring tears to my eyes from the beautiful words. The true words. The words that, at that moment, seem to match up so well to my situation. Tonight, I discovered. Tonight, I remembered. Tonight, I cried. Not for my friends, but for my heart. My heart that for so long was struggling with issues. My heart, that was scared to get hurt. That didn't want to seem vulnerable, allowing myself to be open, and honest with my friends, and myself. My heart that for so long wouldn't let things goes. Wouldn't let people in. Wouldn't let one particular individual in. Tonight, I let Him in. I wasn't planning it. All I wanted to do was reload my iTunes with Christian music. To get my phone charged, and put the songs onto my phone. I don't know what the tears mean. I don't know why they fall down my face. I don't understand. I just know that I feel release. From something that I didn't even know was there.

"Once again, for the very first time, my eyes are opening." In this moment, I am found, I am alive, and I belong.

This is the song that I re-discovered. Read the lines. But not the sake of reading them. Let them captivate you.

Alive In This Moment- Starfield

It's been so long since I have met You here
Since I have said these words or cried these tears
And like a child would come I run into our secret place
And as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my face

I am alive in this moment
In this moment I am found
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I belong

It's been so long since I have met You here
Since I have heard You speak or let You near
And like a wayward son I've come with nothing left to hide
Here in this moment I have come to offer up my life

Here only one fire burns, it burns
Here only one melody is heard
Once again for the very first time
My eyes are opening