Unchartered Waters

I have been living on my own for almost 10 months now. I have been paying my own bills, putting food in my fridge, and paying my rent on time. I am officially an adult, according to the age, and the responsibilities that are included in being an adult. And yet, at this very point in time, I feel intimidated. In unchartered waters so to speak. There is stepping out in faith... And then there is stepping out, totally missing the edge, and falling on your face. So when you feel confident about something, when you feel like this is the right thing to do, why is there so much doubt? Why do I feel so scared to step out, and do this? I find myself sitting here researching prices, and names on google. Am I really going to do this? Am I really going to try and start my own business? YES. Wait... WHAT?! God has put so many things in our lives. Our own special gifts, memories, families, friends, ideas. I want to think this is from God. But how am I to be sure? There is nothing that would make me happier than helping out Mom's. I think about it, and it makes me excited. I was born to serve people. I was born to work with children. To put the two of them together, sounds like it should be perfect. And yet I think, God I don't know how to do this! I don't know how to start my own business. To get out there, and get things done. To start a website, to charge people for helping them. AHHH

I have been working really hard lately to change the way I trust God, the way I look at myself, and the way I talk. So hard! Sometimes I feel like crawling into a hole, and just stay there for a long long time. Hoping that when I return out of it, my life will have been figured out for me, and decisions made. "I'm just going to do it!" and then " what am I thinking! How do I do that!!" MAKE UP YOUR MIND WOMAN!!

I will step out in faith. I will start this business. And I will trust that the Lord will guide me through this.