Have Your Way

Have you ever had one of those nights where everything just seems to come into perspective, and your positive outlook on life seems to crash down and land at your feet? We haven't even started interns, and I'm already stressing out about EVERYTHING. "Lord, I don't know how to be that kind of leader, I can't remember to do all that, I can't be that organized..." Tonight I stand at a cross road, I can either trust the Lord with everything I have. With my finances, and with my earthly abilities. Or I can take the other road and continues to freak out, and want to just give up and cry. Sometimes the pressures of life come crashing into my head, paying bills, keeping fit, paying bills, trusting the heart of God. I want so badly to take the road of trusting God, but it just feels like I have been in this same spot for forever. Finding a job seems to be an Olympic sport to me. It's like an impossible feet or something! I know that God provides, I know that he promised to be there. And yet tonight I feel so behind. I feel like I need to crawl under my bed and stay there for the rest of my life. I feel like I can never get my head above water with anything. It seems to be a constant battle with finances. I hate the thoughts of doubt that creep in while this is going on. "Well God, maybe interns really wasn't a great idea. I don't think you really thought this one through..." Trust in the Lord with all your heart. HOW!? God this feels impossible! I feel like everytime I blog, I have this amazing song that ties into my blog... And yet again, I have one. The Lord speaks to me through music maybe. This time it's a song by Britt Nicole.

Have Your Way
Feels like I've been here forever why can't you just intervein? Can you see the tears keep falling and I'm falling apart at the seams. You never said the road would be easy, but you said that you would never leave. And you never promised that this life wasn't hard, but you promised you'd take care of me. So I'll stop searching for the answers. I'll stop praying for an escape, and I'll trust you God with where I am and believe that you'll have your way. When my friends and my family have left me, and I feel so ashamed and so cold remind me you take the beautiful things and turn them into beautiful. So I'll stop searching for the answers. I'll stop praying for an escape, and I'll trust you God with where I am and believe that you'll have your way. Even if my dreams have died, and even if I don't survive I'll still worship you with all my life.