More Reasons To Trust

So, just finished the first week of Interns. And, well, it was, interesting. I don't say that to mean that the class sucks, or anything like that. It just hasn't hit home yet I don't think. I am amazed at these " kids" eager approach to this program. I am finding more and more reasons to lay down my life at the feet of God, and turn around and walk away. This week hasn't been easy for me if I'm being honest. It was one of those weeks where it was awesome, awesome, awesome and then it crashed down infront of me. And as always, I found myself questioning God. And asking "why". Why when you told me to do interns is this happening to me? Why does it feel like I can't get my head above water? And yet through it all, I hear God say, " just trust me." We had a teacher this week say to us, "the Holy Spirit won't take you along for the ride just to dump you off at the end of it." As I sat in the class room, I could feel my flesh rising up and trying to get into my head, and put doubt in. And put guilt in, and frusteration. I can say that I am frusterated with God. But simply because I feel like I am going around in a circle with this particular subject. And yet, every place in the Bible it says that we are to trust God, through it all. So today I made a decision... I no matter what the circumstance will trust the Lord. No matter what. I will CHOOSE to kill my flesh daily and trust. Trust in an unseen God. Trust in the One who has never let me down, and never forgotten about me.